For a long time, I have been stuck in this loop, where I want to get back to this, whatever it is – the putting of my presence into the universe of the eye of the world – but I can’t get myself to do it, because some how it feels inauthentic. But the loop…
Tag: thoughts
PlayDiary: Loosely, on MMOs and My Disconnection
I have trouble feeling connected to things. In individual instances I want to blame the things I can’t connect to, but history shows me that it’s probably me. A couple of weeks ago I finished up my work travel “season”, which had culminated in the month of August having maybe six days during which I…
Forgetting; Seeing
Its funny how little you can see of home until you leave it. I didn’t know that the sky was gray and heavy with 3D sculpted clouds. I didn’t know that the grass in spring was so tangibly green, that horses would squeeze drops from it as they chewed. I didn’t know that it was…
The Perception of Beauty and Beastliness
“In your eyes, I perceive… both the look of a beauty and the look of a beast. Be mindful not to bring about your own end, my dear!” So says the Chrono Cross fortune teller to Kid, my favorite character in one of my favorite games. I thought about this quote every time after that when I felt…
Rika Confesses to Almost All of It 